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April 6, 2015
Nearly every Christmas we read The Best Christmas Pageant Ever. It’s a book about the Herdmans, a group of delinquent siblings who take over the leading roles of the local church’s Christmas program despite knowing nothing of the story. It’s hilarious and sweet, and for many months after she arrived, I kept thinking that our […]
March 17, 2015
One year and three days ago, I went to sleep the mother of three children. Today, I am the mother of five. The fourth is a baby none of us knew we’d be having. And the fifth is a girl. Our girl…Our girl for now. We didn’t know what we were signing up for. Not […]
March 7, 2015
Our little guy turned one month old this week. It has been surprisingly difficult to sit down and write, although maybe not that surprising. My brain is fuzzy and my arms are nearly constantly occupied, making it both intellectually and physically taxing to do something as complicated as BLOG. I’ve got to say I prefer […]
January 22, 2015
Not much has changed with our girl, except that, generally speaking, she is becoming increasingly pleasant to be around, and I mean that truly. However, she also has a newly-acquired knack for making psychosomatic complaints, which can be both amusing and annoying, depending on the day. I’m going to take it as a positive sign, that […]
December 21, 2014
In real life, I like fog. The darkness and dreaminess and quiet–there’s a peace to it. I even like driving in fog, feeling completely enclosed but watching as the path ahead inevitably reveals itself, the path that was always there, though I couldn’t see it. Fog in the figurative sense I like less, but God […]
December 8, 2014
For the first six months of my pregnancy, I was surprised by how emotionally steady I felt. Juggling life–my boys and our girl (and not just our girl, but, you know, the whole SYSTEM that comes with her), trying to be a good wife and a good friend and a good classroom-helper-outer, trying to be […]
November 17, 2014
I’ve talked a lot about what’s hard about fostering, and the reason for that is that FOSTERING IS HARD. I think one of the primary reason’s it’s been difficult for me is the lack of bonding I’ve experienced with our girl. I came into this really, really wanting to bond with her. I think I […]
November 3, 2014
I love the band The Head and the Heart, but that’s not what this post is about. It’s about hair. And hearts. I’ve talked about our girl’s hair before. I seem to be a little hung up on it. It had lice at first. It was a weird texture at first. It was full of […]
October 20, 2014
Friday was a rough day. To begin with, our littlest guy had two separate visits to the urgent care/ER, for two separate lacerations on his face. That really happened. The first one was in the morning, when he tripped over a pillow and gashed the area next to his eye on the corner of our […]
October 13, 2014
She was wearing a lime green tank top, faded black jeans, and pink fleece boots. Her hair, which was cut a thousand different lengths, was coarse and crawling with lice. My oldest two boys and I were sitting in a dingy DES office, waiting… It’s a strange feeling. You get call after call from your […]
